bakit ngayon pa??

note: let's keep this real. TAGALOG would be the medium i'll be using in telling a wonderful story in this entry.(weird.) hope that anna would read this.. (BFF!! ) whoo0hoo..

bakit ganun? dati parang i want to get out of highschool, pero nung napansin ko na may gusto ako kay "money" (itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang iyon) parang napaisip na ako na.. three to four months na lang. tapos.. wala na. ggraduate na ako. alam ko na nung feeling ng friend ko nung may crush siyang senior last year. tapos naman ako.. ako nung senior siya nung....basta!
ang swerte swerte pa ng girlfriend niya (kung sila pa rin!). haha. kasi nung guy na yun, dati ko pa siya kilala, pero parang lately ko lang nanotice. ewan ko. dahil siguro sa mga aksidendenteng "eye contacts". weird. usually ganun tlga nung mga nagugustuhan ko, ewan ko kung bakit.
super talented niya.sobrang talino tapos ewan ko... may itsura siya e. nung miyerkules ko lang na natuklasan na may crush ako sa kaniya tapos feel ko ngayon parang alam niya na. si anna and angel pa nga lang sinabihan ko 2day e. TODAY hah. kasi kanina parang nakaupo lang siya dun. tapos nagpaslamat ako at andun pa siya..tapos parang bigla siyang yumuko na something. anu yun.. ayaw niyang makita ko siya. samantalang dati nasa harap ko na siya wala pa akong pake sa kaniya kasi nga hindi ko pa siya napapansin na ewan. tapos ngayon.. ay ewan. ang amo amo pa ng face niya. wait. suuper obvious na ba nung mga desriptions dito?? eh anu naman! as if naman mababasa niya to, wala naman sa itsura niya nung willing magsurf para lang sa isang walang kwentang blog ko.. haha!! ang weird talaga. sana araw araw ko siya makita. kanina nga nakita ko siya e, dumaan siya sa harap kO! e kaso kinakausap ako ni angepepot kaya yan tuloy. hindi ko napansin.. hmp!

anageom class sinabi ko kay anna. una hinulaan niya ng hinulaan tapos nagbigay ako ng clue... okay CLUES. tapos sinabi niya nung name na pabulong "si * first name* *last name*?" then napasmile ako.. then siya kilig then "oh my gaaad!"
pero mas malala nung kay angelica. nung after na nung CAT yun e. sa may parking lot dun sa bus namen.
tapos sabi ko sa kniya. nung "baka ako nung pangatlo.." then sabi niya.."haha! oo nga noh, sino kaya nung magiging crush mo" tapos nung pabulong type sa kniya.. sabi ko" meron na.." tapos siya.." sinoo?? meron na?" tapos i want some place na walang gaanong tao.. so sabi niya dun sa bus niya.. e di on the way na kame dun.. tapos binulong ko sa kniya.. kilala mo ba si *first name* *last name*.. parang siya"oh my gaaaaddd!!!" as in nung shock na gnun. tinanong ko.. gwapo ba.. sabi niya "OO!" haha..

wala lang..
i'm smiling now.
weird.
god! i'm so open..
bakit kaya??

why can't i just admit it?

what a day. first, someone just appeared in my dream. yeah! and he was damn smiling in there. so i woke up smiling. so we had our long test in ES. i suck. yes, you've got it. it was not as bad as my first plate but i think i did bad. oh wait, my mom said i should stop saying negative things cause it might come true. funny, my biological mom and my mom in the clique said that. good thing, i woke up happy so the "bad trip" did not soak in me.

tomorrow is thursday. crap, we need to practice for the wncaa cheering. the seniors are required to attend. they have moved the bivouac(whatever the spelling of that word) next year because of the wncaa, so it is an official activity.
yesterday was ptc and... i won't be going up the stage this quarter. sad sad sad. but i don't actually feel super bad and the inferior feeling i used to have everytime i see my name DOWN there. haha!. i miss the old me. the happy me who doesn't care where she stands. but little by little i'm trying to go to the BRIGHT side. many things should make me happy.

oh by the way, here's the real story for this entry. i think. THINK. i may like somebody new. and the bad thing is... he's kind of younger than me but not super young. i think he has a girlfriend. why does that always happen to me? it's when i like someone.. then later on i will find out that.. o0o0opppss, he's taken. Then there are others that he's taken then.. o0o0opppss, i like him. damn. but i only like ONE person. as in the solid type LIKE. (you get me, don't you?) and he's older... (okei i'm totally telling secrets in here!). hmmm.. i usually like people who are so0o0.. HARD to reach. hmp!! it's either he's uber rich?, uber smart? or just uber mature or just.. hard to reach. i'm not really the kind of person who approaches first. cause it's... kind of complicated for me. oh, well.. the NEW one won't last long.. i know that for sure..

YES, that's true. that's what i said the last time and i totally don't have the "kilig" factor with him. oh, weird. i'm blabbing nonsense things..

i'll just stick with logan echolls...

by the way. why is everyone irritated this day? crap. this day must really suck. okay then.. i still have a music report to do. do i?? haha!! tomorrow's convocation. and as i've said, i won't be coming up the stage anymore. wait wait wait.

who made me addicted this day?

"it's like i can't breathe
it's like i can't see anything
nothing but you..
i'm addicted to you
it's like i can't think
without you interrupting me.
in my thoughts in my dreams
you've taken over me..
it's like i'm not ME"

wait. why does my friends love the junior guys?
trisha likes *toot*
delro loves *toot*
nyek. dalawa lang pala. baka ako na nung pangatlo. haha!! joke.

...let's just hope no jahgonal member would read this.or else they would really do anything to know something... smelling fishy.
funny.

toodles.

maybe.

is it just me or life really seems so hard? i'm just sixteen and i feel like i've already done the BIGGEST mistake in my life. it looks like i've already had the HUGEST regret. no unless i'm really going to die soon then it's true, i've met my biggest mistake.

it's just that. i thought they would understand. when i say that i have a problem. when say that i'm not emotionally stable. i thought they are going to reach out their hand. but no, i was so wrong. i guess what they say is true "madaming namamatay sa maling akala"
when i said i was depressed that i need psychological help, they thought that i could not be depressed cause i'm living A life. but they don't understand. they really don't. then they blame the thing that makes me happy. they say it's wrong. then if things that makes me happy are the wrong things, i just don't want to be right. would you throw away something that makes you smile in the middle of the day. something that puts energy in you every morning. something that gives you the reason to wake up early. would i throw that away.

one thing i don't understand. you're not perfect yourselves. then why do you push things that i should be like this and like that?? hanggang doon lang nung grade ko. may magagawa ka pa ba?

"trying hard to reach out but everytime i speak out, felt like no one could here me. i wanted to belong here but SOMETHING FELT SO WRONG HERE..."

different.

it has been a tiring day but fun.




though i am so freaking DEPRESSED.

.me against the world.

does the people around me just gets smarter or is it me being dumber? there are things that made me look super dumb today.
first. i just got a 81 in my csat. (stupid, stupid ayeen.). how could i have a grade like that? if i got 81 in bene? what else could i possibly get in la salle, ateneo and up? uh. so frustrated. good thing i'm trying to live on the positive side.
second. my social studies grade. though i think i got 90. i don't know. it's like i got the lowest score. i swear. everyone whom i've asked or have heard they all got higher scored than me. hmp! so frustrating.
third. i still suck at es. GOD, help me.

one thing made me happy:
i got a 95 in Filipino. oh, well. you don't know how hard is it to get a line of nine in Filipino nowadays.

one month to go. and it's simbang gabi. even if my schedule would be uber hectic since there are a lot of stuffs on the way. my quarter exams (which would fall on the 15th,18th and 19th.). the alumni party thingy. (it will fall on the 16th.) and then there's the investigatory project (which would be submitted on the 10th and 14th). wow. they really think we're super heroes huh? so i guess i need to maximize time and forget logan for a moment. as if that's gonna happen. i wake up 4 in the morning just to watch and see him! by the way, i miss nathan! anna got my three-season dvd. SHOUT TO ANNA. i miss my dvds. :-)

i so want to watch season 4 of oth and season 3 of vmars. waaaaahh!! someone made me an addict.

"you do your best to show me love but you don't know what love is"

toddles :-)

at the end of the day.

you know what's great about school? If you're like me who is frustrated in making the grade, you'll love school because at the end of the day there is always something to talk about in your blog.
so. i screwed physics. i'm scared because i don't know if it was easy or i was too dumb not to answer it all correctly. i got my answers all wrong. physics is something that no matter how hard you study you still end up thinking. you don't memorize in physics. YOU DO THINK and ANALIZE things. but hopefully i could use that analization skills when i get to college. all i need is positivity. could someone give me that. oh well, it's nine pm and i still have tests tomorrow. i should be really running right now.
oh, by the way, i had the worst eyebags ever. i swear. i have been scared the moment i had looked in the mirror.
hmp.
there's no way screwing math. i'm good at math. and it's not something that just disappear as you enter senior high. i know that "goodness" is still within me. all i have to do is search for it inside of me. i miss my first year days when i don't have to study and yet i get a high high high grade. wait. i never had an uber high grade in math. i forgot. well, i'm gonna miss these days. i wish.

"to love and win is the best thing. to love and lose, the next best"

toodles.

again and again.

when can i finally push myself to the limit? i had this another plan which predictably failed. oh no! i'm gonna nail this one. i swear. let's see if i still get 8's in here or 7s for that matter. i am really going to be... MISERABLE?

so i still need to finish this filipino thing and i still have assignment in ES. refer to my friendster blog about the ES crap.

that's all. i just love my new layout. even though i did not make it. who cares though? it's the thought that counts.

that's my motto from now on.

"there are two tragedies in life. One is to lose you heart's desire and the other is to gain it." -Shaw

it's us.

grades will always be a part of us. it's us, we are grade conscious people.. and it will always be us..

tama ba spelling ng conscious (?). forgive me. i'm blank right now and... i'm dumb.

toodles :p

my friend has tagged me.

How often do you blog?
* kapag may time magblog at pag wala ang kuya at pag may internet card!.
Online Alias:
*ayeen.just ayeen
Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
*the truth? no.
What do you do most often when you are bored?
*dvd baby!! or just sleeping or minding my lame life. :-)
When bathing, which do you wash first?
*feet.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
*yes. i think!! haha...
What color looks best on you?
*it's not that i'm bragging, but i look good in any color. haha!! yabang!
.Whats your favorite alcoholic drink?
* i don't drink.
!Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death?
* purgatorio. i believe.
Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends?
* no. more offline than online.
What was your favorite subject in school?
*none.
Are you a perfectionist?
*i wish i am.
Do you spend more than you can afford?
* no. i'm being real, and if i can't afford, i don't push myself on buying.
Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved before?
*i don't know. it depends on what's important in your life. if your not pro-love, i think it would be better not to have loved at all. ( do what i say suck?)
Do you consider yourself creative?
*no.
Do you give yourself the credit you deserve?
*yes. minsan haha!
Do you donate time or money to charities?
*now? no. but someday, i will.
Have you recently done something to yourself that youve criticized others for doing?
*haha!! yes. and the feeling sucks!
Whats on your mind right now?
*my school life. my home life. my friendship. basically... my LIFE.

i'm tagging no one. i'm idle.. :-)

OTHERS...

i totally miss someone. i have not seen him for months. and i'm totally going insane with all the things that run in my mind. the other day i almost cried myseld to sleep and i've done nothing significant for the past few weeks.
i'm having problems with myself and i've got no one to tell about the things i feel. it's like everyone would be against me. i asked my friends on how to have counseling with the guidance counselor and they just laughed it off.
we went to town yesterday and we went on "stalking" walking. we hid and let our friends walk by themselves and we wanted them to know that we were not in there group or we're missing or anything. but surprise! no one noticed that we were'nt there except for angelica. i so love you for that.
and there's this pain. pain i can't describe. hey! i really can't breathe around you guys..

I"M FALLING. ow, let me change that. I"M FAILING....

let's see why my life just gets better everyday.
: i have no future. college future.
: i now consider myself dumb.
: i have let TWO great opportunities past my life.
: the pain and the scenes just kept on flashing in my mind.. even in my dreams.
: i got all line of 8 in my qes.
: gosh, my life really does suck.

am i really like that of i'm just hard on myself?
you know what i don't understand??
i study while others don't and.. others get HIGHER grades than you. oh well, grades isn't everything right??
yeah tell that to my atmosphere..

sorry for being like this, blog readers..
it's just that.
LIFE has always been UNFAIR.
oh i forgot..
LIFE IS UNFAIR.

high and proud...

section 42: engineering and architechture

GOT THE HIGHEST AVERAGE in:
- physics
- math electives
- math
-cve
-social studies
-english
-filipino
-pehm

* gosh you make me proud. ayan may lalagay na tayo sa pader natin! haha..
and we got a certificate for being one of those two sections who actively participated in the guidance week for the sorry letters...

addicted...

i found a solution that have been undeniably unsolvable for years.
maybe i should take drugs. ECSTACY maybe?
haha!. but i'm still thinking about it. i want to have time for everything. for school, studying in ALL my subjects to catch up and patch things. but i won't allow to have my whole life ruined by just this damn INSECURITY. as said by the PNP school based protection program seminar we had, "sisirain lang niyan ang buhay mo". but i don;t know, i can't handle pressure at this point and i'm so damn tired of it. and to think i'm just a 4th year student. what more if i'm already in college??
or maybe i'm just like NATHAN SCOTT...

or i just watch to0 much one tree hill nowadays.

don't worry my friends, i'm still SANE. :-)

** there's something fishy in our barkada. four of us are working like veronica mars to connect to people who obviously LIKE each other. so we've got to take anyone who is blocking their way, even if it includes another friend!**
does that make sense?? or the guy likes the other friend to0??
o god, we're pathetic. or they are. at least.

lost.. big time.

i'm LOST in a world where i think i don't belong.
i used to hate people who pretend on being intelligent. and you know what? i have no difference to those people.
god, i suck at school. maybe i just luck time to review. or maybe, i'm just plainly dumb. i can't catch up. today at laboratory my friends are together in one table and i'm the only one who have been separated. and i'm totally clueless on things. they've been always on the top and i'm the only one who's left at the bottom. maybe i just don't belong in there circle. i'm getting INSECURE again. just like what i always feel, everytime they talk about school stuffs.
i'm messing things up BIG TIME. i got to change fast before i completely go insane and be shattered into pieces.
just pray that i've got to figure thing out.... so0n.

does not make any change at all...

why are they like that? why do always people think that the one on the honor roll are the only people who are considered "smart". actually, there are some people who seem to be very industrious, does every homework, does the project well and reads a lot but still does not get anything. and there are people who just don't care about their grades, or what their teachers think, but once they're thrown a very hard question, they manage to answer it logically and with flying colors. i wish i was the latter. intelligent. for real. the one who knows something when asked a confusing question. but i'm still the same. i can only answer the simple ones. 1+1 i guess.
why do parents always consider the child's classmate as smart if they only belong to the top 10 or the honors' society. they don't even know a thing. do they know how hard is it to study. on how our teachers punish us with difficult assignments and give us unsolvable problems with a brain of a 6teen year old? no, cause they only care on what your transcripts are. they complain when they see a line of eight. and does not care if there are achievements. i don't know. i guess it's just so unfair for people who are really intelligent, yet they are not noticed. and i envy those people. they freely do what they want. they can just play instead of doing assignments. just sleep while others are burning the late night studying. and in the end, they still ace those test. i wishh i was intelligent.
and teachers tell you that we're grade-concious. words for you: go talk to our parents and explain to them what's inportant on the god damned REAL world. yes, a world where numbers does not matter.

* my entry's a blur.. i really don't know what the hell am i thinking right now. but i had a lot of GOOD thoughts earlier but blogger was so slow so all of those were lost. damn it.*
anyhow, SENIORS won. congrats guys. amazing how other levels watch us fight like chickens in a cockpit. making us their puppets and feeding us with anger to the other batches. i'm tired of this competitive world... fighting for PRIDE? i guess. maybe i just gave up on beating someone else when i know to myself that i envy that person, because i like that person. it was just TOO hard and too full of TWISTS and TURNS to admit. that's why i got to turn my attention to other things that would keep my mind busy or else i'll be insane. anyhow. i can't say anything anymore..

yeah right...

sheesh! another plan failed. bakit gnun? i was so focused this long test and you know what happened? i got a fever! damn it.

shiet! i'm so irritated right now..

been infected by a virus...

not do i only have complicated relationship with numbers but i also do have complications with my whole senior year class. i hate this lazy-attitude of mine. many things have been ruined in my senior year and i'm hating it a lot. i need to be more serious and i got to forget other stuffs and other people/ PERSON(?). :-) . so it might sound dumb but i want to have a


BLOG LEAVE

again. since i'm really having a hard time these days and my first quarter have been greatly affected. got to focus more.. more and more. cause i live in a world of grade-concious and high-grades people. so i better be one?? and since the next three quarters would give me a lot more HARDER lessons, MORE projects and a lot more PRESSURE. t. i should start handling pressure properly. just pray that i won't cry.. :-) i would do my best no to check my friendster to0. cause someone... isn't changing anything. so there.

and i don't think something awesome or go0d would happen to me for the next few days since it would be the giving of grades and everyone knows that i did not do so0o0o go0o0d or better in there. so much for being me.

:-)

till here.

next tym would be... I HAVE NO IDEA.

"lost in a crowd where i feel i don't belong..."b> -ayeenatienza
anneyong seo.. :-)

three days in silence??

we just had our retreat for the past three days. it was fun and sort of frustrating and irritating at the same time. it's fun because we had a little bonding in our ro0ms kasi mejo pwede lang naman magingay and magkwentuhan kahit malakas. haha. frustrating kasi napaka "pathetic" ng retreat letter ng !p!ah and some people are so0o.. biased. :-). and it came to the point na parang wala akong natutunan. kasi it's about Jesus di ba? and what they're saying is a fact i've already known for several years. they just kind of elaborated it. but still, it's just the same. the fo0d was go0d. ayus naman siya. wala nga lang appetizer and dessert. :-). then nung mga sessions ang dameng natulog kasi ba naman pagod na pagod pa kame from the past few weeks of hectic sked. there's UPCAT, then quarter exams then they still ask us to make a write up and we still need to do a lot of retreat letters since it's the last year. di ba napaka unfair naman nun? kaya nung pauwi na parang wala ng gana na manggulo sa bus.. hmp!
nung SUPERFRIEND lng na term natutunan ko. pero alam ko na yun kasi nababasa ko siya sa school paper dati. dun pala galing un. nyeh! ang sama ko ba? kasi medyo i've learned nothing? pero kahit papaano naman meron. ang babait ng auxies.. haha! kaya nga nung iba they also wanted to an auxilary. then us, jahgonal bonded. inaapi namin si LEA DOMAGAS. hehe! lagi na lang si lea.. nung mga ganun type. pero seriously, totoo naman nung mga pinagsasabi namin. LEA, if you're reading this. alam mo namang totoo un di ba?? hehe!
well, i still have a lot of things to do. our teachers are so oblivious to the fact that we are so tired that they give us LOADS of assignments. so much for being physci.

GOD, i am so nervous with my test. being careless lately. and i still wish that i still have God's mercy..

so till here. thanks for those people who gave me retreat letters esp. the unexpected ones. and for those people who promised that they will give me one and i've received nothing from them. and for those people whom i expect a sensible retreat letter gave me a pathetic one. yes.. you know who you are cause you, yourself said that what you gave was pathetic.. anyhow, i still appreciate it.
thank you guys, seriously. gamsa hamnida.

ehem. expect a better treatment from me. do you get it?? it's meant to be sarcastic. :-)

when you lose something you can't replace...

i just spent 300 + pesos today.
i bought a white belt and some kikay things. actually it's not kikay things.. they are toiletries. haha!

it's already 730 and i'm really in a hurry. i still have a lot of things to do. and needs to be done.

- my article for our club assignment
- write ups for my friends ( valle asked me to do his.. so flattered! hehe)
- retreat letters for everyone..

haha..

i'm insane...

okei. last friday we went to see ASIMO. the humanoid robot.
so i'm not in the mo0d right now because i think i have a complicated relationship with NUMBERS.

so for the next days i might be busy studying for my quarter tests and upcoming UPCAT. but i will still update my friendster account.

that's it for now i'll have

BLOG ABSENCE

i can't think of any other word for leave. :-)
for the meantime.

not unless something uber go0d happens in my life like bumping into lee dong wo0k. :-)

CIAO!!

shock

last day of long test today. [july 27]. it's queenie's birthday. haha.

so let's start. first, we were shocked with our physics long test. the first page was all about terminologies and we did not study about that. then we said to our proctor that it wasn't our test because it was written above "medical science, business and entreneurship, arts and letters". there was no" enginnering and architecture. so she went downstairs. as in so0obrang bagal.
then she said. "it's the only test for all the fourth year". and parang kame. "ano?? di ko to' alam".
pero sana naman tama nung mga sagot ko!!

pati sa anageom. sabi ni sir saria. "wala na nung mga median and altitude ek-ek. tapos lumabas kaya yun for 5 points eache pa.. e ilang items un?? 4. e di 20 points. pang-aasaaar!

then i went to go0d shepherd bazaar. kaso sarado pa nung stall na pupuntahan ko. so pumunta ako kina angelica.
andun sina rachel,lea,angelica , inigo,jr, mike and charles. kaso umalis agad si charles nung natalo na sa poker nila. then we had "UBE" and girl talk and may bago akong natutunan.
the term "backstab" are for friends only. and pag other person na, it's called "panlalait". haha!
then lumabas na kaming girls. then nagpicture. then we decided to play patintero!!
haha!!
madaya nung BOYS. ang hahaba ng arms!! tapos parang ewan pa kumilos. nung sa basketbol. haha!! okei lang close fight naman e. wahaha.. gusto ko pa sana i-expand nung story kaso tinatamad na ako ang it's almost 1 am and ka-chat ko pa tong inigo na so0brang tagal magreply kaso tumatakas sa ate niya.
anyhow, napapalit ko na nung my girl na cd.
kaso sira pa rin.

POINT i've learned
.. kasi nga pinikot!

:-)

we're going to makati tomorrow for the HONDA thing.
ROBOTS!!!
:-)

thoughts in my head, they come and go.

today:
i've watched lee dong wook at wowowee. nilalandi nila mariel at janelle si lee dong wook. he's a shy guy pa man din.

mariel: what qualities do you like in a girl
lee dong wook:[with the help of interpreter of course!] smart and wise.
janelle: what is your ideal girl
willie: yun na nga yun e!

haha! katawa. and the usual, lee dong wook said "mahal ko kayo". "kapamilya". haha! may sinabi pa siya e. di ko lang naintindihan nun iba. aww.. uwi na kaya siya? after nun nanuod ako ng my girl. haha! addik. infairness, wala xang girlfriend. :-)

LONGTEST:
hindi pa ako nag-aaral.

COURSE:
i still don't know what i'm going to take. but i've put in my application forms "electrical and communications engineering". labo ko tlga.
my mom asked me the other day. "kaya mo kaya". then my brother interrupted and asked "yun ba talaga nung gusto niya."i really don't know what i like. engineering is ideal. and i'm sick of ideal. i want to take something i really really want. dapat kasi accounting or something about business but my friend said "iba na kasi ngayon e, computers na nung gumagawa ng accounting, so hinde na sila naghihire". e di ba engineering ang bumubuo sa computers?? ahhhh!!
damn it. what if i won't pass. sabi pa man din ng kuya ko. "sa real world hindi importante kung matalino ka ang importante madaming kang alam sa nangyayari. kumabaga, madaming kang kakilala at madami ang may gusto sa ugali mo". gago tlga un. kung anu2 pinagsasabi sa akin. pero honestly, just thinking about the future drives me insane. what if hindi ko magawa nung best ko sa career na tatahakin ko kasi walang passion? e di ba importante un? natutunan ko sa sitwasyon na ito: mahirap maging asa gitna. aka. no enough resources.


AKO BA?
i'll share a bit of my private life.
what if kausap mo nung girl na may gusto rin sa crush mo. pero hindi niya alam na may gusto ka rin sa crush niya. pero siya so0oper open. as in lahat kinukwento niya. tapos kapag nagkkwento siya, parang nagppretend ka na hindi mo alam or something. bsta, tapos you dig for more info about sa guy ng dahan-dahan. HYPOCRACY ba yun? kasalanan ko ba kung hindi ako nagsspread ng sikreto ko! haha.. yun lang.

NANG DUMATING SIYA:
lahat nagbago nung na-addik ako sa MY GIRL. kala nio tao noh? i mean, parang i became a joyous person. kasi dati di ba parang suicidal ako na galit sa buhay. tapos nung naaddik ako sa my girl, parang nagbago lahat. ikaw nga sa my "i wake up each day feeling alright". tapos bumawas nung pagiging irritated ko. tapos i look forward to going home. haha! mababaw pero totoo.. at least nung hobby ko nakakapagpabago ng buhay. haha!

sige. aral pa ako. hindi pa ako nagpapakenerd lately.

"here i am alone starting to realize, that my days would be brighter if i could learn to hide these feelings i have for you keep hurting me inside"
> hindi naman exactly ganyan.