Saturday, October 21, 2006

my friend has tagged me.

How often do you blog?
* kapag may time magblog at pag wala ang kuya at pag may internet card!.
Online Alias:
*ayeen.just ayeen
Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
*the truth? no.
What do you do most often when you are bored?
*dvd baby!! or just sleeping or minding my lame life. :-)
When bathing, which do you wash first?
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
*yes. i think!! haha...
What color looks best on you?
*it's not that i'm bragging, but i look good in any color. haha!! yabang!
.Whats your favorite alcoholic drink?
* i don't drink.
!Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death?
* purgatorio. i believe.
Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends?
* no. more offline than online.
What was your favorite subject in school?
Are you a perfectionist?
*i wish i am.
Do you spend more than you can afford?
* no. i'm being real, and if i can't afford, i don't push myself on buying.
Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved before?
*i don't know. it depends on what's important in your life. if your not pro-love, i think it would be better not to have loved at all. ( do what i say suck?)
Do you consider yourself creative?
Do you give yourself the credit you deserve?
*yes. minsan haha!
Do you donate time or money to charities?
*now? no. but someday, i will.
Have you recently done something to yourself that youve criticized others for doing?
*haha!! yes. and the feeling sucks!
Whats on your mind right now?
*my school life. my home life. my friendship. basically... my LIFE.

i'm tagging no one. i'm idle.. :-)

i totally miss someone. i have not seen him for months. and i'm totally going insane with all the things that run in my mind. the other day i almost cried myseld to sleep and i've done nothing significant for the past few weeks.
i'm having problems with myself and i've got no one to tell about the things i feel. it's like everyone would be against me. i asked my friends on how to have counseling with the guidance counselor and they just laughed it off.
we went to town yesterday and we went on "stalking" walking. we hid and let our friends walk by themselves and we wanted them to know that we were not in there group or we're missing or anything. but surprise! no one noticed that we were'nt there except for angelica. i so love you for that.
and there's this pain. pain i can't describe. hey! i really can't breathe around you guys..

I"M FALLING. ow, let me change that. I"M FAILING....

let's see why my life just gets better everyday.
: i have no future. college future.
: i now consider myself dumb.
: i have let TWO great opportunities past my life.
: the pain and the scenes just kept on flashing in my mind.. even in my dreams.
: i got all line of 8 in my qes.
: gosh, my life really does suck.

am i really like that of i'm just hard on myself?
you know what i don't understand??
i study while others don't and.. others get HIGHER grades than you. oh well, grades isn't everything right??
yeah tell that to my atmosphere..

sorry for being like this, blog readers..
it's just that.
LIFE has always been UNFAIR.
oh i forgot..