Thursday, September 15, 2011

Alexis and Nika

Credits to Owner of the picture.

These two people are honestly strangers to me. I am not a big fan of Philippine films, or films in general.

For some reason, I was wide awake last night even though I had to wake up at four in the morning. After watching a few episodes of a Korean series, I decided to watch local channels. I ended up watching ABSCBN’s Storyline.

I won’t lie. I stopped because Chris Tioseco’s good looks had caught me but Alexis and Nica’s love story is what made me stay.

It still rings in my head. Alexis’ love for films, for the Philippine films. How he followed his heart and did not do business even if his dad wanted him, too. I salute his love for this country, his need to give back to what kept him alive.

I adore the fact that their love has been able to cross continents. How Nica left Slovenia, leave her family, live here in the Philippines and be with Alexis.

And it is tragic how they ended up dead inside their own home.

Chris is right, you don’t get shot inside you’re own home, that’s supposed to be a home.

A place for peace and yet, they were shot.

I still remember the look on Chris’ face. On how he said that the criminals should have just taken everything. Everything else.They should have just left Alexis and Nica alone. They should have just spared their lives.

But they took everything. Everything.

Definitely a love story to remember.

I wish I could find the video and share it to my followers but i can’t find it. Argh

Friday, June 3, 2011


Got myself a new pair of sunglasses because my last one got broken when I had a vacation in Ilocos Norte last December. It took me months to replace that one and now can't wait to finally use it for sun protection. :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

We Turn 4 :)

May 24, 2011. JJADM, my dear college circle, just turned 4 yesterday! Happy to be included in this circle. We had differences but they didn't get in the way of our dear friendship.

Taken during Jang's 20th birthday over at Sambokujin. :)


Tuesday, May 17, 2011


From Mario Maurer's Twitter:
ohohmario | mario
This shirt For my fans in Philippine:)

Monday, May 16, 2011

My KathBie appreciation entry :)

Albie's 18th Birthday at the Casino Residence.
KathBie love ♥



...where I think I should start making lists. Lifetime lists, everyday lists, goal lists. Just lists.

And I wonder if this should have been in my LJ.

Friday, March 25, 2011


.. God answered a prayer.

I prayed that I could wake up one morning and be true to the people around me. I prayed I could wake up and be true to myself.

And today, God made it possible.

He made it possible through the words of someone that I heard today.

I smiled.

These are the truest people I've ever met.

And I'm glad God placed me there.

Happy to be Tapat.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011


March 22, 2011

It’s creeping to four in the morning. I’m still awake and I don’t know why. I don’t even know what I want anymore and how am I going to surpass this all. It’s crazy. One minute you exactly know what you want and the next minute you’re lost. I don’t know which way to go.

How do you exactly turn your back to something that keeps calling?

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Love is hard to catch nowadays.

Days are long and nights are even longer. Too bad, love isn’t like a flu that is easy to catch. There are times when loneliness outruns me in the race of life and being alone seems like a torture. In these desperate times, I turn to the only entertainment I know, television. Oh I am in love with television.

There are a lot of loveteams that were able to make me hyper to the point that I feel in love at that moment too. There’s John Lloyd and Bea, Mark and Jennylyn, Matt and Melissa, Lauren and AJ,and even the controversial Josh and Hayley, but I’m pretty sure I’ve never been this fangirl in my whole life.

I want you to meet, Kathryn and Albie, or KATHBIE as their fans call it (ahem, I’m one of them). These two people portray the roles of Mara and Christian in the top primetimes show, Mara Clara.

As I watch their story I kept asking myself, what the hell was I doing in highschool? Why didn’t I attempt to make a good character of a lovestory out of myself? Now my diary’s empty and no one seems to make me smile during those times.
Going back to the loveteam I adore. Mara and Christian’s first scene already caught my eye. Aside from the fact that Christian’s appeal is undeniably hard to resist, their chemistry is what got me. I mean just seeing them standing side by side each other can make me smile like a total idiot that’s never been in love. Oh wait, that’s true. I know it may seem so shallow but it’s really hard to keep all the kiligness to self. THEY ARE JUST SO FREAKING AWESOME and adorable! I just love them right now. And I would honestly like to say that these two people, these two characters, are what got me through my previous frustrations. – guys I only had halfway. And we all know that those kind of guys are the hardest to forget.
The story starts when Mara moved in to a private school as a scholar. Right before meeting the school’s basketball superstar, Mara met this guy who tried to shoplift a bracelet. Mara stops the guy from succeeding and save him from getting caught at the same time. And it was riot from that time as the guy refuses to be grateful to Mara and instead, he said he’ll never forget her face. A few days later, they meet eye to eye again at AAA’s basketball court. That guy was Christian. Being a certified bully, Christian continues to pester Mara but this girl never gave in. A few more episodes later, someone fell for another. Christian found himself defending the constant damsel in distress, helping her with getting a work, not get bullied by others and winning an election. Christian fell for Mara.

And it’s not only Mara who fell for Christian, every girl who watched their story did.

So I never mean for this entry to be this long. All I really wanted to share is that they are now the love of my life and seeing the current episodes just kill me. REALLY. They had Mara dead! But if you’re really a fan , you’ll know that that is crappiest thing ever. Seriously.

I hope their loveteam lasts.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

ENTRY # 176

For some unknown reason, I was always fascinated by pen and paper. If I go to a bookstore, I make sure I come out of it with either a new pen or a new paper.

And sometimes it makes me sad to just let it go.

Whatever the unknown reason is.

Monday, February 14, 2011

In between choices.

I never really understood when someone shuts some people, important people, out of their life. They do this with the words "I need to find myself." I honestly didn't understand that. Why? Do people really get to the point of being lost?

Yes. I think they do. This is exactly what I've been feeling for the last days. I've done something terrible and I think I'm suffering the consequences right now. I always try to tell the important people in my life that I am where I am supposed to be. That God has still that future ahead of me --which I still believe is true. I've survived a month with positive thoughts and I had a lot of desires burning in my heart until misery caught up with me. Can I not really outrun negativity?

I am lost right now. I know I've said it before but I honestly feel like crap. I'm trying to convince everyone that it's okay. I try to convince myself every morning that things will fall into place. But I still feel like crap.

And I guess that's why people re-build their walls. Keep every people out again and get to know themselves a little more. I just want to be away from the lives of the people I treasure and once I treasured. I want to walk out of their lives because I feel so down and I don't want to pretend in front of them anymore. Maybe the lying is what makes it so difficult. Lying that everything is alright -- when it's obviously not.

I once told a friend that I am going to delete my Twitter and Tumblr down. And maybe I'll get Facebook too. I just feel so bad right now I don't want anyone seeing what's happening in my life. I will walk again into their lives when I'm up again. When I've decided who I want to be. When I've finally outrun negativity.

I'll go back when I'm whole again.

When I've finally found myself.

I know it sounds crap. So please, forgive me.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Short Hair, Check!

I had a haircut over at Bench Fix Salon last week and I am quite contented with the outcome. It's been a week and it still has its volume. :)

BTW, I want this haircolor. And I'm still thinking whether to have this or brown. :|

Kang Hae-Na, My Fair Lady (2010)

Your eyes. Your eyes.

So, today I've watched clips over at Youtube on how to clean make up brushes and as well as make up sponges. And I was successful at cleaning them.

Make-up I need to have. Please when I have money.

DISCLAIMER : I do not have full knowledge of make-up and I do not own professional ones. And I don't know what to call some of it.And the right brands. So please don't be offended or insulted if I called some things wrong :D

1.) Black Eyeshadow Cream

2.) Liquid Eyeliner

3.)Brow brush

4.) Glitter eyeliner

5.)Eye shadow brush

And I honestly want to this make-up:

But I am Asian so I have monolids. But hey, I shall try.

PS: Pictures not mine. Just searched Google. :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Damn, Regret.

As much as I want to appear strong and answer the question "What are your regrets in life" with a nothing, I would come clean.

I haven't lived my life to the fullest because I've always chosen to be on the sidewalk, where it is very much safe from trouble. I've been a safe player, or you can even consider that as not playing at all. I dislike risks. I don't go out of the house without even knowing how to get back. I don't take chances without checking out if the favors are with me. I know that there are a lot of things that I wish I did. It may be hard to believe but these aren't the things that bother me at night.

Whenever I ask myself some nights about the thing that I regret the most, I turn on my bed and hold the rosary that has always been beside my pillow.

I was little. I can't even remember what age I was but I remember that I can't reach the top of the pew in the Church. I was nearly four when I woke up to the day that changed my life. I still remember it clearly in my head. I was sitting on the high chair my father had made. We were eating breakfast when my parents suddenly noticed that something is different with my face. And I guess the rest is history.

I grew up with a religious culture. I was enrolled in a private school that are headed by Reverends and priests. Whenever I would go to church, I would always pray to be healed. My mom would always tell me at night that Jesus will do some miracle, that eventually, things will fall on how it used to be. I prayed. Every night I will pray and every morning I would expect to see a different face in the mirror. Sadly, it didn't change.Days, months and even years has passed.

And then there goes my regret. I stopped praying. When I hit the age of ten, I've stopped praying for a miracle. I've stopped expecting a new face in the mirror. That's when I've stopped believing that things will change. I've stopped believing in this thing they call miracle.

I've been through a rough patch in years and I would say that if it weren't for those hard times, I won't know Joel Osteen's book. I know that I've said this a lot but his books really did save my life. And this sickness may have taken some things from me but now I do know that God will restore things for me.

So I know it may take some years again to wait for that miracle but this time I have learned. Prayers work. It may not be in time where you thought you needed the most but it will work in His perfect timing.

So if I could advise one thing, don't stop praying. God hears you. He's listening. He's not moving away from you. And he can never disown his own child. You are His child. Always remember that.

Then No One Knows

"They say you have no memory of pain, and this proves it. They say we only remember the fact that something causes pain -- fire burns, knives cut -- but we're incapable of remembering the pain itself. That's why after the trauma of childbirth, women are ready to have a baby again a few months later. That's why, I guess, we fall in love again."

-- Vince Teves, Vince's Life (The Wedding)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


I think one of the tragedies in life is having to make a decision on choosing between your heart and your head.

I've never been in this situation before because I always knew what I wanted, unlike now.

My head is thinking something while my heart is beating something else. What do I exactly do?

I guess this is the part where they say you've got to know yourself first. You have to know whether you have a better head or a better heart.

And I've always thought I've never had a heart.

What now?