Pain. I was swimming in pain for the past two days. Tears come out of nowhere. Sleeping is all I do thinking that maybe if I try to sleep again, I'll be successful in not waking up. Maybe if I close my eyes one more time, I won't see the sun.
My rage for things has subsided. I'm not calm but I am closer.
It's chaos in my head, no order. I can't think straight and I don't even know what my next moves and counter moves would be. But here's one thing that I think: It's time to chase dreams.
Time to let go of the things that make me miserable from the very beginning. It's time to listen to the voices in my head. It's time to let them out as they scream above a whisper. It's time. It's time.
One step forward.
Two steps backward.