naiyak ako. babaw ko tlga.

watch this. i'm looking for something that was shown yesterday at my girl .. but i found this. gosh naiyak ako.. haha!











okei. so there. wala lang naaaliw ako sa MY GIRL. lalo na kagabi. asteg nung episode. julian' s in love with jasmine. haha! sorry hah ang addik ko.
basta. kakaiba kasi nung story e.

JULIAN: babalik ka pa kaya? aalis ka na ba? di ko papayagan.di ko kakayanin. dito ka lang, kailangan kita.

* well di niya exactly sinabi kay jasmine. pero parang ganun na rin. grabe. parang this series really shows what love is. kasi matagal na akong naghahanap ng movie or anything na nagpapakita tlga ng love or something. i think nahanap ko na..
haha..

**
i'll post the lyrics of my latest addiction na song. sa mayonnaise. maganda nung mensahe e. sige that's it for now.

sorry kung sabog. nawala lahat ng dapat kong isulat sa utak ko e. dahil sa youtube. nanuod kasi ako e.


for someone:
..kaya pala kita kalimutan. tv lang pala katapat mo. haha. i'm looking forward for more things for you to drift in my mind. :-)
-ayeen-
hehe

hirap ng test.

new love.

loving the korean series my girl.
gotta update later.
i'm watchign at youtube
:-)

a song.

nothing special about my day.
"wisdom or wealth". the question in our english class. we talked about this poem about wisdom. i liked the poem though. then anageom. we're left behind. so our teacher deleted some items on the test. haha! he gave us worksheets, which at first he told us that it is going to be submitted by friday. hello? so he said sa monday na lang kaso nga lang dagdagan pa ng 3 worksheets. then he gave away everything. lahat ng worksheet.s he said there are 500 copies of it, e kaio lang naman anageom noh! haha. so my classmate said, maybe next year.
we had our pe. badminton. i think i got 3/5. not unless the short service is counted then i'm going to get 4/5. damn. hahaha!!

i'm suppose to type something else about my day but i forgot what it was. so anyhow.

i've watched MY GIRL yesterday. haha! happy-happy-joy-joy. hehehe! the story is good. sana maganda nung mamaya. i can't wait.
i'm going to study and answer the worksheets so i won't be occupied on weekends. i'm going to watch "high school musical". i'll do my best to watch it. haha!!

i was browsing through my papers last night and i saw something. a poem which i made i year ago. i think it was a year ago already. i think.

so here it goes: [sorry filipino e]

nakita kita na may kasama
lumingon ka at nasilayan ko ang iyong tuwa
isang ngiti na nagmamalaki
sa tabi ng isang minamahal

hindi mo alam may nasasaktan
hindi mo pansin may umiiyak
hindi mo alintana na may nagdurusa
pinipigil ang pagpatak ng mga luha sa mata

ipinamukha mo sa akin ang pagmamahal sa kanya
na para bang sinasabi na ako'y umiwas na
labis nasakatan ang damdamin kong ito
hindi ko akalain ito'y dahil sa'yo.




* ayan xa. nung story nyan, akin na lang. haha! ayaw ko ikwento e. pero hindi yan nung feeling ko tlga. exaggerated lang xa.
my classmate has also a new song. maganda rin. para rin sa knyang..:-). haha! as far as i know ako gumawa nyan. one year na kasi e. alam ko one year na nung nangyari yan e..haha! na-iintriga ka noh? loko lang. so thanks sa lahat ng naka-appreciate and makakaappreciate. abangan nio na yan sa recording stores.[ haha! kapal tlga ng mukha ko.] wag nakawain hah!.. kapal ko tlga. joke lang un! basta...

sige i'm going to listen to my new cd. nung pinaburn ko kay iñigo. haha!

till here..

big deal.

everyone was talking about high school musical. and i wasn't able to watch it because my dad was watching pba.sorry we only have one television. so there. even my busmates were talking about it and my classmates kept on singing the song in there. at least i'm not as clueless as mark. haha!

so there. i'm sad about that.
so what happened to me 2day? let's see. my brain was stretched, as in stretched during physics time. the problem was so hard. so hard. as in hard! dun mo ma-a-appreciate nung chemistry laboratory. wahaha! haha! kame nga nung pinaka luge na group e. pero no worries. JAM to the rescue. haha..

i just got my ateneo application form.so i still don't know what i'm going to take in there. probably, management engineering. ang labo ko tlga. iba2 nung mga pinagkukuha ko.

so there. i'm quite in a hurry.

so there..

it's amazing how you make an idiot out of me..

"pinaasa mo na naman ako... for the nth time." pangilang beses na..ako naman.. asa pa rin.

today is sunday. i didn't get the chance to watch high school musical, which by the way i've waited for more than a month. sad..sadd..sad. so tomorrow is monday. and our laboratory is tomorrow to. bad. bad. bad. i'm really getting scared at physics.. i don't know why. so what else.
hindi pa ako nakka-aral. sadly again. it's so hard focusing on your goal when i am so easily distracted by things. don't worry it's not a guy, and definitely not a girl.
i just don't know what..
so i better have a double time or else i might fail.. fall hard. damn. it's so hard..
i forgot what i'm about to say. i've been formulating this saying.. thought in my head for days and i already forgot what it is. hmp!
so i guess i only have one thing to look forward to tomorrow. MY GIRL. i saw the preview hours ago.. kakakilig. siguro pipigilan ni julian si jasmine. anu kaia??

i remembered the thought already.
"it's so amazing how fate manages to pull you down even if you're at your lowest point."

corny ko tlga. at least hindi about love.


nak nak nak.
till here..
that's it for now.. malungkot ako e.. gagawa pa ako ng birthday letter for... alam nio na un. baka mabasa nia e. mabuko pa nia na may surprise for him..
magpapaka-nerd na ako. may papantayan lang ako.. haha!
kidding.

i asked for a sign... and i saw one.

the title: nothing much. something that i've been looking for lately.

yesterday:
yesterday was friday. CAT day. whew! just changing from uniform to civilian is so hard, so imagine what more the CAT thing is. though it was fun. i think. nkakatawa nga nung kinuwento ng classmate ko. sabi daw ng officer nila. "100 squats". e di nalito nung boys kung ano gagawin nila kasi ng 100 squats daw. haha!! pati nga kami nagsquat e. grabe! ang sakit sa pa.. pero ayus lang un.
i'm having a hard time at physics. not because i can't answer. but because i'm not fast enough to gain merit and forgetful to put the negative sign on third quadrants. i need to practice my thumb.. forefinger rather in pressing my calculator. i need merits! haha..
i'm going to study today.. but i need to watch first let's go cause i've missed the last episode. i had a hiarcut kasi e.
BENE CHRONICLE.
my article sucked so much. ang panget tlga. as in sabog siya and does not have a complete idea. i think it's even incomplete. how am i suppose to write in ten minutes without a proper chair? hmp! that's okei, i'm not running to be a staffmember anyway. so my topic was. "REALITY TV and its Impact on its viewers. i think it's the easiest and i've managaed to make the worst article effortlessly. okei. i'm being negative again..

SWEET VALLEY SENIOR HIGH.
i'm going to read it. i hate WILL[ jerk of the year]. i still love JEREMY.. haha! [perfect guy]. yan kasi si jessica hindi siya nung pinili..

*walang MY GIRL kahapon. maganda pa man din nung susunod. sige.

friendster muna ako.
add my friendster.
www.friendster.com/frustrations

:-)

call me a nerd, i don't care...

there's nothing else running through my mind for the past few hours but school. but there's this last shout out inf friendster i've read that changed all that.
anyhow. i just figured out that i need to do a lot of things. study for UP. study for physics. study for filipino, which by the way i've already failed it's first three quizzes. study anageom, sound dumb but i don't remember anything. so all-in-all, i need to study. it's not that i can't find time, it's just that i've been feeling a lot of confusing and frustrating things lately. sometimes i just stare blankly at my ceiling and letting myself fall asleep. so dumb. so now.. i still don't know the reason why i'm still here in front of this pc and typing nonsense things about my day...

so i better go...

science @ love?

1.God is giving u just 5 more minutes tolive, kungmy mhal ka, anong ssbihin mo s taongmahalmo?-hanggang sa muli...

2.Ano ssbihinmo sa isang taong ayaw mniwala nmahal mosya?- kung ayaw maniwala wag na pagpilitan.

3.Ano mas msakit? iniwank, o niloko k?- niloko ka..

4.a time n tlgang pinagaralan mongmahalin angisang tao?- hindi pa nangyayari..

5.Can lovers be friends after d break up? -- yes, if both parties have learned to move on...kasi kapag hindi pa. ibig sabihin nagmamahal pa nung isa, kahit may iba na.

PART 2

1.Ano msasabi mo sataong sobrang seloso/selosa?- insecure...wag ka mag-alala, di ka nya iiwan. not unless napakaplayboy/girl tlga ng boyfriend/girlfriend mo..

2.Ano masasabi mo sa taong nagpipigilsalove?- just let it go. mataas ang pangarap nila...

3.Ano masasabi mo smga pLayGirl?- what goes up must come down.

4.Ano masasabi mo s mgasalawahan?- no two things can occupy the same space at the same time - impenetrability[science yan]. motto ko rin yan. masasabi ko.. mas mahal mo nung isa.

5.Anomsasabi mo s mga mangaagaw?- fight for it when it's worth-it. pero kapag may mahal na, wag ng pagpilitan pa.. [huh?] weird ko.

6.Ano masasabi mo s mgananloko sayo?- what comes around goes around...

PART 3
1. Paano ka mag-MAHAL?- hindi ko tlga alam..

2.WARFREAK k b?- sa friends? oo.. pero hindi nung nanggigiyera type. nung sigaw-slash-debate type.

3.Ano ang karamihang FIRSTIMPRESSIONsayo? -- tahimik..e sa totoo naman e..

4. Mabilis ka ba magka-CRUSH saisang tao?- soobraang hindi.

5.SELOSO KA BA?- insecure ba ako? i think it depends on the magnitude..

6. Madalika bang MAKALIMOT ?- oo, pero kung interesado ka tlga. di ka naman makakalimot di ba?

7. Paanomo masasabi na TRUE FRIEND angisang tao? -- anjan xa lagi. ups and downs and always supports you.
8.importante FRIENDS OR FAMILY?? - -- pareho..

9.Naniniwala ka baSA LOVE?- gusto ko maniwala. pero at this generation, they show different meaning of love.
10.Ma-PRIDE kaba? sa totoo lang, oo. it runs in the blood...

just a day..

i just came home from school moments ago. we were stranded in there for about 25 minutes. the tire was ripped so everybody went out the bus. the kids were playing.. as usual. i'm sleepy but i still don't want to sleep. i might end up waking up at 10 pm and i would not love that. i still want to watch my girl. the series is really funny and kakakilig. i really have fun watching them. i missed the monday episode and that sucked. that was one of the best episodes. [i think.]

*lee dong wook [julian] and lee dae hae[jasmine]

0o0o0o0o0o
i had a lot of thoughts earlier but iwas too lazy to type.i changed first my layout and all of the thoughts that have been running in my mind while i'm still in our school bus were gone. so i guess i'll just talk about school.
we had mass. it's st.bede's feast day, i think. and there was this eucharist rather that gathered all the students in secondary level in our school gymnasium.and there was this awarding thing .
then we still had classes after lunch. we had english. good thing some of us were called for the annual honors. [yes, i am still part of it.. in God's mercy]. i got 90.46. and not bad.. it's still line of 9. for someone like me who was too lazy to understand chemistry by heart.
next week is our long test, sadly. so that means i need to study by now, or i'll be cramming by saturday and sunday. i'm also going to watch HS MUSICAL at disney channel, so maybe i'll be attending mass by saturday, but i don't think that would be such a great idea. i still have assignments for tomorrow and still idle to do it. oh, i forgot. we have reporting tomorrow about HISTORY-RELaTING-ECONOMICS. but i think that is easier thatn psychology.. oo0ohhh.. highschool life.

0o0o0o0o0o0o

i borrowed the sweet valley high, senior high that is, from rachel. i missed them all.. jess and liz, melissa, tia, will[even if he's such a JERK],ken, maria, andy, conner and of course jeremy,the oh-so-perfect guy. and will is really a jerk. and jessica is just wasting her time with will, if only she could have chosen jeremy over will, she would have been happy now[ at least this part of the story]. but well, what else can i do, i'm just a reader. a frustrated reader. haha..
o0o0o0o0o0oo

it's 6:35.. so i still need to change the css codes from my friendster. i wonder why friendster means a lot to me.. ikaw alam mo ba? you want to know why? who know, someone special might be over there..
haha.. just kidding. just livening up the nerves in me...
wuss tlga ako..


so till here. i may have missed some topics but i guess that would just stay with me. along with the thoughts in my chaotic head.

the week that was

i just had my haircut. mejo mabigat sa ulo pero ayus lang.


1st week of school is over and i've met all my teachers.

mrs. almayda - homeroom/math teacher.
she's my admath teacher last year. and when she said that we're all going to pass because she's our teacher and she won't let us down. i said to mysel "yes, papasa na ako". last year's 4th year physci teacher is ms.diaz. good thing mrs/almayda is now ou teacher. soobrang laf3p and carefree kaso mabilis nga lang magturo.

mrs. clerigo - physics teacher.
she said, "you don't need to memorize formulas, all you need is to know the principle". she's great and napakagaling magturo. you'll never get bored.minsan nga lang nakkatakot kasi baka tawagin ka then you won't know the answer. di ba?? and she calls us engeng kapag mali sagot namen. but she said that we're not suppose to get offended by it because it really does not mean that we're dumb. besides bagay naman daw sa min kasi engineering daw kame. e di eng-eng. tawa lang kame..

mr. saria - anageom teacher
yes. i'm glad that he's my teacher kasi kahit papaano papasa naman siguro. unlike last year si mr. abrillo sa 4th year physci. my prom partner said that he really fails you if he want to. many students were removed from the honor roll because he failed them. so ngayun, at least pede naman siguro pakiusapan.

ms.elgario - english teacher
and slash my club moderator. depende pa if we don't change our minds in transferring. hehe. she's good, just by the way she speaks. isa lang ang sinasabi "MAGALING TONG TEACHER NA ITO". and hopefully i'm right. i shoukd watch my words and grammar around her.

mr.mancao - cve teacher.
ang dameng pinapagawa. actually hindi madame. mejo mahirap lang nung iba kasi he really wants REFLECTION. and for someone like me? baka mahirapan ako.. haha.. i'm looking forward to those anti=boredom activities he's preparing..

ms.miranda - filipino teacher
slash my teacher too last year. she should be our adviser kaso kinuha ng medsci. haha! we were joking about it last year. she said that she wants to be our advise and the whole class erupted with noise of happiness. but mrs.almayda is not that bad.looking forwar for my merits..

ms.aguas - prac.arts teacher
i thought she is so strict hindi pala. she smiles kapag hindi namin lam nung mga bagay-bagay. we're taking programming again. so abanga nio na future program ko. haha! as if. i thinkshe's good. she kind of made programming so interesting for me. last year qb sucked so much.. this year we're taking visual basic..

mr.caballero - social studies
slash our prefect. haha! last year marshall law kame sa knia pero ngayun tahimik na kame.. he really enjoys economics. and i wish i could. haha

ms. portillano - health teacher.
i think she's also your health teacher. as everyone else. mas mabait na xa kesa nung 2nd year. haha!!

ms.caramol - physical ed. teacher.
my friends hate her because they say she gives low grades. paano nangyari un? i even received 99 from her when i was in first year. 99 or 98. then they're saying na mababa magbigay? haha. they want ms.bracamonte but i think i prefer ms. caramol. yata. not unless something changes my mine. on-leave si ms.caramol e.


kung may na-miss pa ako sorry na lang. so there. andami pang homeworks..sige till here muna. i'm not feeling well again. it's something inside...

and anyhow. i think i just made another mistake in my oh-so-called life.

suckfest of current world.. just tell me i'm insane.

have i told you how i hate my current situation?all i want is just this little thing called TIME.i woke up 630 in the morning today. kind of sucks huh?and here i am in the living ro0m watching some kind of koreanovela which i'm forced to watch anyway.it's just..the other night, actually it was just last night. i did fill-up the UPCAT application form and i said to myself"hey, i still don't know anything". dammit.i need to study kasi nga di ako nagreview classes. and i still don't know what i'm going to take.
langhiya.and my mom is forcing me to take this course which i don't even know.
ayoko na! like now..
i want to stay in a room na so0obraang lakas ng music. nung tipong wala ka ng maririnig sa outside world. haaaayy.. kaso ganito na tlaga yata ang buhay ko. BORN to fail.
anyhow..
ewan ko na. basta for once, gusto ko wala muna akong pake..

ayoko na..

can't you see i'm so frustrated.
sometimes it comes to my mind about dying.
but life's full of struggles.
and it sucks..
so0braa..


"all i want was just that something to hold on to"

is that too much to ask?


SEND HELP to me..

:-)

officially senior.

o6-06-o6. today's our orientation. and yes, we were all quite excited about it.
i woke up 5 in the morning. kinda strange huh? for a fact that our orientation is still 1pm. i woke up early not because i'm excited. i don't know, sometimes i just have the tendency to wake up anytime. then i kept on bugging my m0m about things and telling her strange things. i'm kinda weird. so there.
i decided to watch the television so i could sleep. i ended up sleeping again 9 in the morning and i need to wake up by 10. so my m0m kept on shouting at me and she's telling that i'm going to be late because our school bu would pick me up by 11.
so i was already dressed up by 11. then ara and judy came into our house. ara said there's no electricity in their house because of what her father did to something. so they waited in our house for the bus while i watch one tree hill.haha!!. dumating nung bus before 12 na. hmmmp!

so there. i arrived at school then akala ko ako pa lang. andun na sila. grabe ang haba na ng hair ni iñigo na dating kalbo. pati si lawrence ang haba ng hair.

the bad thing..
42 section ko! ang daya. lahat kame nanibago kasi nung assembly parang siksikan na. unlike dati na so0obrang luwag kapag 39 or 49.
wawa nga physci ngayun e. kasi di nila naexperience nung 39 na place.
i want to be section 49 as physci pa rin.
and xempre walang naiba sa class namen. may dumagdag lang ng isa.
then adviser namen si mrs.almayda.[my admath teacher last year.] so since dati ay puro physci kame dati. we are so b0nded. kaso mejo pinagsabihan kame.. ang ingay daw namen..
daayaa..

sige till here. magpapapicture ako tomorrow for my UPCAT application.
hahaha!!

this is so great!

these days..

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Big Five Word Test Results

Extroversion (24%) low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive. Accommodation (44%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly selfish, uncooperative, and difficult at the expense of the well being of others. Orderliness (61%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (30%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Inquisitiveness (38%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

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anyhow.. mejo malabo pa yan. and mejo di ako naniniwala kasi overly neat?? please lang. nagkamali ata ako.

i just came home from the church. i attended the mass. i have not changed my clothes cause i'm so addicted to internet. hahaha!!
everytime i hear mass, i feel like the priest always sends the message TO me. hmp!
i'll be going to school on tuesday. it's our orientation. i just don't know what time yet. it's my senior year.. i am so EXCITED.and i'll be getting my allowance. i think i won't be eating for a month. it depends if i can take it.
i've already computed it and i will have about 2,500 Php by the end of the month. and i will be buying dvds. i just went to the go0d shepherd bazaare the other day with my friends. and i've checked the prices of the dvds. [one tree hill and the oc.] and guess what? 400 pero season. i think i heard it right. or that's only the 3rd season? ewan na! basta pagiipunan ko un. wag nio ako uubusan hah! if ever you people decides to buy to0..
i'm still frustrated on making a story. i am planning to join our school paper. i think i'm gonna fail. i think.
waaaaahhh!!! friends help me!!!
hahaa..

napano0d ko na let's go..
grabe parang nonstop. and si ALEX, parang toni gonzaga. my brother said that she is toni's sister. ewan ko lang.. basta parang toni gonzaga tlga xa..
i miss nonstop!
so0o0oppperrrr....

that's all for now. i can't think straight kasi may nangyari kanina e.
GOD? are you punishing me??
hu-hu-hu..
just kidding!

congrats KIM CHUI.. big teen winner.